Mindfulness really has a battle on it’s hands doesn’t it. First thing when I wake up I want to turn on the laptop which is on my bed, open four web pages – wordpress, facebook, work email, personal email. When I’m at work in the office it’s only three to start with – the two emails, and work website but during the day I’ll have any number of databases open from my stick, phone calls, drops ins and co-workers standing at the side of my desk asking things I’m surprised I know the answer to.
All of this means that I find it so hard to relax these days.
Does your mind kick in the moment you wake? I’m fascinated to try and pinpoint that actual moment – do you open your eyes first or does your mind just take off? Or rather are you conscious of thought?
This morning, silence hung suspended like a heavy net finally broken by a distant car door closing. It is never silent around here so the absence of noise was like a vice, physical pressure. Then the little cat did one of her crazy runs through the house. You’d swear that animal had brain damage sometimes but if you look her in the eyes you can see she’s actually highly intelligent. Enfant sauvage.
Clearly meditation is not working at the moment – calm down mind..